If I had the means… I would run to you
If I had remembered sooner, I’d be closer
If I had your heart, I’d cherish it
If I had more time, I’d love you longer
If I had your smile near, I’d be unable to contain mine.
If I had you, I would never let you go.
If I had my way, we would meet again, and experience it all together, laughter, joy, blessings, love, family, friendship, intimacy, flirting contagiously, like the two most annoying people in the room. That’d be me and you, if I had my way… id have you.
So I broke the glass.
Why did I spend so many years in a room full of people who didn’t understand me, they may have claimed to love me but never could show it.
No alignment whatsoever, it was sad to see such unfit relationships ….
people draining each other in more ways than one, the confinement of a place, and a friendship, the likeness that everyone was suffering the same, the misery in the company of people who thought they didn’t fit it, who didn’t realize that it was a connection they were searching for in joy and not in disparity.
The darkness hiding in plain sight was rampant no rapport no soul connections only control being passed back and forth, a glass cage holding a piece of you …. yet no mirror to reflect the love you were giving others.
Truly a dark place, break the glass, the class is not your own, you are an individual and that is not something that defines your character… though at times …. depending on where you start, the rose tint may even cloud your whole vision, of reality… of the real world and the people in it.
So.. break the glass ceiling. Not with your hands but with your heart, it’s speaking to you, so listen or your heart may break instead.
Break the glass and free yourself.
We all have our own issues and you really cannot put blame on people for acting in the way they need to, and don’t feel bad because really, in the grand scheme of things…
Their life is about them and your experience is not something they can control. You must take effort at face value, but not on your own terms, because life in all its essence is of our own and not one person knows the depth of a person, their hardships and connections that cause them pain, or happiness or joy.
That is the intrinsic way that our world works and allows us to decide. I know God has a path and the universe pushed you to or away from what is and is not meant for any person, however it is in their faith and hope that there is love, and meaning in the way it unfolds.
What’s meant for you will come, it just may not arrive in the way you had initially insisted, prayed or hoped.. but it will truly happen when hearts align, in whatever capacity that is needed. Be happy when you can, know your attitude places your experience of what is happening.
And where the mind goes will surly tell you what it wants, but it will not tell you the way, this is something you must know and believe in the magic of this place. Conscious, present, right now, and here, what a miracle life can be, be thankful for each day, each opportunity. Live well by you, not by others words telling you their truths, because remember… you have your own.
I am here to make up for lost time, to understand where my heart went all of those years. And how just a dimly lit lantern can bring it all back, someone who saw somebody just once, and a million times over in memory. And Now… I am the one who can’t let them go, their music has healed me beyond any doctor.
It is amazing the things your brain can remember, only when you let it believe in magic. For a long time… seven years and somehow this universe brought me to WordPress…. and somehow, just somehow you were the first blog I clicked on. && if you need me no longer, this time you will have mine to come back to.
A tribute to someone whom I left alone for a long time… my dear I was only beginning my lost journey. One that only Robin Williams could have brought be home from.
The magic was gone for a long time, and this time… YOU helped me bring it back.
A thousand times thank you, & a million times sorry. “And she’s saying I’m here now… I’m here now.”