BY: Hillary Murphy

So who are you to me?

And why is this dance so confusing

Each day passes on like something’s missing

Can’t this world stop spinning round

These thoughts encase me


Close and cross me, but what does it all

Mean if you don’t love me

You don’t say my name

Each day I stay strong to be okay

They see it each day, the shards of my heart

Fallowing out to the flowers which couldn’t

Change their mind yet only conceal and hide

So now you’ll punish me in my pride

Knowing well that this is not my fault

And if you still wanna find this place

This arms race where we fall out when boy

you just can’t decide.

So just tell me now, what do I need

What word, what way do I need to go

To find peace inside and you next to me

Whichever side is right for you and I?

Can’t you just speak and allow this

To happen, or stop this storm that knows no end

The love that we need yet can’t find and

Refuse to rejoin. You’re breaking

The pieces you love, yet you hate me because

I forget, just who I was, slowly you come back

And it’s me who doesn’t get to understand?

So write me in or write me off, I’m not trying to

Limbo this life, so if it’s me take my hand

I want to be understood… this time,

Please don’t ever leave me. Alone

Inside, my mind eats me up.

Yet you’re the only constant thought.

So the reciprocal vocation hurts

But, know this… I tried. You were there.

The look in my eyes… so starry eyed. but you know

Cartoons, and I… know that stars mean two things

Love and a concussive memory

Lost inside. So well hidden you have me

Breaking my every code, hurting my courage

The love inside. So… I’ll ask you again, will you stay

this time? Or have I already burned that string

Invisible, invincible, grab my hand you

Know where I am. Regardless with you in mind, I’ll

fight, I’ll erase time, just to give it to someone who sees my true insides.

So. Tell me again, who are you, and what are you here to find, intentions bleeding from your eyes.

Decide.

Written: 01/26/2023